Lately, I've been wondering what's going to happen. It's been almost seven months since I lost my job, and there's very little out there...the appealing prospects never call me back, but neither do the poop jobs.
Lately, I've been wondering whether or not I'll be able to handle being an OT. The Princess had a pretty much textbook-perfect experience, and I know that many of the kiddos who need these services are far worse off than she is. What if I can't handle it emotionally?
Lately, I've been wishing someone would just pay me to stay home with The Princess and maybe write a little.
Lately, I've begun to realize that retiring before 30 would be fawesome.
But I've also begun to see that it's nowhere near possible. I'll sit back and wait to see how the job thing pans out, and all I can do is try the OT thing and hope I'm strong enough to work with shaken and beaten children without coming home battered and bruised myself.
The unknown can be exciting and scary as hell at the same time...
You're right about that, the unknown is both scary and exciting. Stick with the one day at a time philosophy!
ReplyDeleteI have said it before and I will say it again, you should write a book, you are a excellant writer. I enjoy reading everything you write about your experiences with Chloe and your husband. It would be great to actually know a author, come on Tomato Lady what do you have to loose?
ReplyDeleteDitto on the writing! Been telling you that for years. Just keep in mind, you can do absolutely anything you put your mind to! You've been proving that your entire life. The unknown IS scary, but I don't know anyone better prepared to handle absolutely anything that comes her way.
ReplyDeleteI believe in you, Sis. You have a huge heart and I can't think of anyone better to help out these kiddos. Of course there will be tough kids and sad situations, but YOU are the perfect person to help them and advocate for them, just as you have done for your own little Love. These kiddos NEED you. And you can always continue to write about your new experiences. It gives you more content to pull from. :)
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